Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in Spleen's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, January 29th, 2002
3:47 pm	so for a minute the idea of taking a bath seemed very appealing. until i thought about bathing in my own dirt. unless there were a ton of bubbles and candles and the ideal cheesy bath every girl dreams of in a spotless bathtub with jets and hot HOT water. like the bathtub in Seagoville, TX. with my cousins. hot water murder. and wrapping a strand of hair around our fingers until they turned purple. and then we all hit puberty and could no longer bathe together. things were so simple when i was 8. (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 27th, 2002
11:42 am	travis and i are looking at apartments next week. i'm excited. oh and we've hired like 5 new girls. . Sarah: there's joey's new girlfriend Me: oh. cool. (i didn't know he had a new girlfriend..but then again why would i.) Me: wait! does she have an apron on!? is she working here?! how am i the last person to know this!? and then there is a worthless goth girl. the only thing she said to me all day is that she is going to vo-tech. learning how to make teeth. like dentures. and that she was the freak in highschool. And i think that she is trying as hard as possible to alienate herself. and then there is Lyndsey who is just kind and sweet and talks. and i'm going to kickbox tomorrow. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 25th, 2002
8:19 pm	hahahahaa! nice. so anyways, travis and i fed the ducks today. and we are going to look at a loft apt. above mister roberts. i'm going to pretend like i'm living in manhattan. and now i'm going to go sign up at the Y. i'm scared. sarah:we should go to that place soon for the you know what (yeah, you suckas wish you knew..) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
11:57 am	1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?? usually between 8:30 and 9 2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON WHO WOULD IT BE?Alan Cumming..except i would be too shy. so probably Britney..NO I MEAN CHRISTINA (that's for you sarah) 3. GOLD OR SILVER? silver only. 4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA? Spy Games 5. FAVOURITE TV SHOW? 6 feet under 6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST? sweet sweet loving. 7. WHAT WOULD YOU HATE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM WITH? vomit. 8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? yes. 9. WHO INSPIRES YOU? communication arts. 10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? May. 11. BEACH OR CITY? both. 12. SUMMER OR WINTER?summer for now. 13. FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?? Coffee 14. BUTTERED, PLAIN OR SALTED POPCORN? kettle corn. 15. FAVOURITE COLOUR? lime/minty the perfect color of green. 16. FAVOURITE CAR?VW beetle. 17. FAVOURITE SANDWICH FILLING(S)? fake chicken 18. TRUE LOVE? always. 19. WHAT CHARACTERISTICS DO YOU DESPISE?? lack of goals and aspirations. lack of empathy. stupid people that think they're really smart. 20. FAVOURITE FLOWER?i forgot the name of it. 21. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN ON THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU LEAVE IT BEFORE YOU TOLD PEOPLE? 10.2 seconds.. you know, when i'm packing to move. 22. FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK? fizzy!? gross. 23. WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR BATHROOM? the color of white that looks good with blood splattered all over it. 24. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 6 25. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO? manhattan 26. CAN YOU JUGGLE, IF YES HOW MANY? 3. sometimes 4. 27. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK? thursday after 9. 28. RED OR WHITE WINE? white. 29. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? i don't remember. oh yeah, i know that i didn't get a call from my boyfriend. so i went out and drank beer with alexis. 30. FAVOURITE PET? dogs. ceciley in particular. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 24th, 2002
10:41 pm	for sarah to read at work. sarah: i don't know about getting your punana (poo-nah-nah) pierced. If I was to do it personally I would get my labia pierced a) it wouldn't be AS painful as a v-hood. b) i wouldn't lose the feeling after a while. Although, it would be cool to have an orgasm in the middle of class, though it might get old. and you can't have sex for 6 WEEKS. that's a whole life time for 42 flies. oh and i think that Christina's are really cool looking. it's a surface piercing and if you don't know what it is look it up on bme. it's hard to describe. besides, i think my aunt might be reading this and i think i've already gone into enough detail. but i did have a dream that i had my tongue webbing pierced again and my clitoris pierced and the ring fell out so i took my tongue ring out and put it in down there and it seemed so real to me. i woke up thinking "when did i get my vag pierced!?" so enough about that. I had some really bad sleeplogic last night. usually travis spoons me like all night and last night we slept in different directions and for some reason i thought that he was mad at me and it put me in a bad mood up until now. this used to happen with joey too when he'd occasionally spend the night..though i usually went to sleep unhappy everynight with him. not that anyone cares. i'm just rambling so you all will have something to read. and i think i might miss my cat when donny and i aren't living together. speaking of, it's going to only be about $20-40 a month cheaper for me to live by myself with my parents paying rent rather than splitting a place with travis. just depending how much rent is. because paying all the bills by myself would really add up. so far the pointer is on travis and i getting a place. and i know you all are sick of hearing about it but it's really the only issue i have right now. and i figured out why i'm itching to work out so badly. i have always done something athletic weather it be dance, yoga, basketball, volley ball, and so far this has been the longest i've gone without doing anything. therefore, i've gots to get moving. i don't want to get squishy. oh and you wouldn't believe it. tonight at work Lora let me ride from the stock room to the table on top of the weigher on the cart while she pushed it!! she's so cool sometimes and sometimes she really sucks..but we all have our days. but she wouldn't give me my paycheck. it's not like I DIDN'T WORK FOR IT OR ANYTHING. and that's all i've got for now. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
3:52 pm	today when i showed my teacher the guestroom records logo he had nothing nice to say about it. i'm not too upset, though. he was giving me constructive criticism, i guess. in viscom it's all about trying harder and perfecting everything and sometimes it's tiring but well worth it. last night my mom took me to wal-mart. she bought me hair dye, clippies, and veggies. nope, not to eat. to draw! i have to draw them and then fill them in black. i can add white space where needed to convey the veggie. I picked out a zuchini and some bok choy. the zuchini very much resembles a penis, while the bok choy resembles a vagina. while picking them out i told my mom to try to find the most phallic looking zuchini possible. ha. and everybody in my class is embarrased but me. then again everyone in my class is waiting until they're married to even look at their mate's parts..hell they're probably waiting to look at their own even. it's respectable..just not the way i would go about it. and i'm going to join the Y. Kickboxing, yoga, and pilates. hells yes. i would go to huffman but it scares me. and i went and picked up my scholarship application. and poor travis and sarah are having to endure media of broadcast survey right now.. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 22nd, 2002
12:13 pm	i can't say anything nice..so yeah. i might not be updating for a while. until i get out of my funk. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 21st, 2002
2:44 pm	my mom has been telling me one thing and telling my sister another. e.g. "no you cannot live by yourself" says mom to kathleen. "yeah, it would be a good experience for her to live by herself" she says to me. but apparently i'm trapped now. this is all such a fucking ordeal.. anyways.. work has sortof been putting me in a bad mood lately. i still love my job and all it's just sometimes i don't want to deal with a customer's problems. sometimes i wish i was completely spoiled rotten and didn't need a job. i could just do school. and make art in my spare time. that's what i would do if i was a housewife. work freelance and get a show. and redecorate my house all the time. but it's not in my character. speaking of my character..i don't think that my family really understands me anymore. they don't have a clue as to who i am and what i believe. it's like they shape me in their mind to still be the way i was when i was 16. definitely not who i am now. eh. i'm sick of thinking about it. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 17th, 2002
3:16 pm	i love school: viscom (graphic design), typography (graphic design), ceramics, history of viscom. the people in my classes are cooler than the people in yours. and i will have the pleasure of being in school with them for another two and a half years. i'm LOVING it. I designed the logo for guestroom records and i think it looks really good for my first real project. donny asked me what travis was paying me for it and i told him that he didn't want to know. hehe. and i need to get a haircut. it's growing way too fast and i want it to be simple and short..well, about half an inch shorter than it is now. and i was thinking about bleaching it. or just putting hella highlights in it. but i'm really not too concerned about my hair. i talked to my dad some more about moving out with travis and donny and being able to talk to my dad like an adult about the whole situation made me feel better about the whole ordeal. i mean, it wasn't anything he said or did..it was just usually things like this usually call for my mom being the buffer zone. the middle man. and then he offered me $3000 to elope. hells yes. vegas, here i come and everyone else is welcome.. but not tomorrow. and on a side note, i think that waiting until your married to do-the-do is more screwed up than co-habitation. just a thought. oh, and i forgot to mention a few weeks ago (when travis was in vegas) i went to the doctor. they gave me zantac to take twice a day. he also told me that i need to get some exercise because it will releave stress (which makes my stomach tend to hurt even more) and it will just be good for my body. so huffman here i come..well, once i gather the courage to work out in front of sorority girls and frat boys. sarah's going to go with me so that'll help. a lot. at least for the first few times. then i'll walk in like i own the place. i might do the kickboxing there too..hehe my friend in viscom does it and she told me that they play cheesy radio music comps. including britney. haha. you've gotta do it with me, sarah. or whoever else wants to come along..jenny? the only problem is that i have to work and go to school when it's usually going on. eh. i told travis that everytime him and justin do record store stuff that i was going to go work out. he told me that i'd get incredibly buff. and i will. just you watch, suckas. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 13th, 2002
4:07 pm	so today i tried to gauge my ears to 0. but the acrylic pink plugs i wanted were $24.95, and i just wasn't willing to pay that. and i've been talking to my mom a lot lately. here is what she has to say: -you can't live with travis. -you can't live by yourself. -you have to live with donny. -fine, live with travis and donny. -your grandparents will die with grief. -you need to get married. -you need to at least get engaged. -you're marriage isn't special if you already live together. it's like wrapping your own christmas present. it's like have a c-section. -the wedding should be in december..so you're only living in sin for a semester. -i have my reservations. Here is what my dad has to say: -you two need to move out together right now. tomorrow! -you need to get your car checked. -you can't sign the lease. -travis will have to pay half the rent if you and donny and him live together. -i want to have a talk with travis. Here is what i have to say: -mom, i'm not getting married. no. -mom, this is my life. i'm an adult. i can make my own decisions. -no, mom. it's not your decision to make. -dad, travis will be paying 1/3. not 1/2. there are 3 of us. -oh, god. don't talk to travis. what are you going to say!? -dad. we both have leases until may. we can't move out tomorrow. -donny lived with a girl! -it's just me and donny living with one of donny's friends. (hey, it's the truth..i just happen to be getting naked with his friend) -mom! i don't want to get married tomorrow! -you are so uninvited. -fine i'll get married in an alley where maybe a stray dog can piss on me. and that's basically how it's been. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 9th, 2002
1:56 pm	okay. so i haven't slept in my own bed for about 6 months now. this is common knowledge. well, it's a good thing i haven't because today I discovered CAT PISS in it! I give that cat nothing but love and she fucking pisses in my bed. this almost warrants a trip to second chance. or maybe i'll just go get her uterus cut out and her claws ripped out. goddamnit. you know I was really excited to get her but now it's really just a pain in the ass that i didn't ask for. my brother-in-law got her for us. and apparently he doesn't keep animals in the house because they're filthy creature..but i guess it's okay for kathleen and donny. oh and not to mention that we might never be able to get another decent apartment again. damn cat. yeah, she nows she's in trouble. the little whore. ARGH! at least my dog would aim for the floor. not the middle of my freakin' bed!! damn. *i swear i am not an animal abuser. just venting. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2002
3:15 pm	new journal. it's a new year. resolutions are: -to not be so sensitive. i get my feelings hurt a lot. -to take my own advice more often. it seems that sometimes i'm so indecisive that i don't even make my own decisions about my very own life and what goes on in it. i'm just going to start doing what feels right. (1 Comment |Comment on this)